This was a difficult read. I listened to it in audiobook form which heightened the story as well as the tensions surrounding the themes (CW. This book is about sexual abuse and, in particular, grooming). I was, at times, angry with the author. For most of the book, it feels apologetic, minimizing, even encouraging. This is because we are in the mind of the fifteen year old girl who is experiencing the abuse. If we feel confused, it's because she feels confused. This type of close read of a complicated and complicating character can be difficult. It can even be seen as problematic. I thought it was inspired. I recognized this girl. This book will stick with me, always, in good ways and bad. (tip: Stay for the interviews at the end of the audiobook)